write forth

i want to write
full-time, poetry, novels,
essays that change the world.
i want to... truly.

i want to so bad
i will make the time
create the opportunity
rearrange and plan.

i will make a schedule
up at dawn, eat, coffee
write
break, walk, coffee
write and lunch
cycle, correspond, last coffee
write then dine
read, write, and watch
and retire
sounds like a plan
right?

i will do it
i will adhere
dutifully
with great resolve
dedication
the best intent
for two maybe three
days.

then the days
turning quickly to daze
from gazing into
the abyss of boredom
caused by impatience
and servitude
to routine...

april 17, 2021
albany park